hmm...a lot

Sry my dear readers. I know I haven't been on for a long time...so here...here's what's up with me...
UGH! idk what it is...its like everything. everything. it makes me upset. I have
to tell someone. but who? like everyone is messed up and freaky and will hurt
me. Like...idk. i dont even know what it is really. its everything that's hurt
me. everything thats been said. its just-life i guess? but i know that it doesnt
have to be this way. so should i let God make it better? i dont really know what
to do or how to do it. i'll just let it play itself out...i guess
there you are.
Mags