Wednesday, July 11, 2007
L.I.F.E-Lessons Intended For Everyone
Wow, its been over a month. I'm sorry. Life's been so crazy!
Where to start...Its like...so-I'm not even sure what to say. I've been half way across the world, gotten in trouble, been utterly confused, made bad choices, gotten stuck in the middle of things, made new friends, lost friends...And the list goes on. *Sigh* It's been really really hectic. I have no time to breath or think or share life with friends or anything. This week has been fun getting together with friends non-stop for like 5 days or something. So that was fun. Camp starts in a few weeks. I think I'll be working with Alex so that's exciting...
Through this all...Have I been telling God about my life? Have I been daily sharing my life with HIM, not just family and friends? Have I been asking things of HIM and taking my issues to HIM and thanking HIM for things? Truthfully, not so much. My devotions were becoming more just...just by routine...like its just what I do. But now, since India, they've gone back to really being time with God to talk and listen to him. And THAT makes me excited! Um, I guess I wanted, and still do want, things my way and in my control. Life at this age isnt easy. You all know that. It's mostly just...well, it can be confusing. But, slowly, it's being figured out. I saw it as challenging and annoying and...hard. But now, I'm beginning to see it as fun and an adventure. It's something I'll only live once. So lets make the best of it. Sometimes it can get hard if you dont have friends doing it with you. So I have joined them in to help me and walk with me....its quite an adventure...A great one. BUT-How can I follow the path, that I see as one in darkness, I dont see where the next turn is? Well, if I know the maker, the creator of it, I can ask him to shine a light on it. I can ask him to hold my hand when I walk over the unexpected bridge. I can even ask him to help me get back on the path when I get off, or fall off the bridge! Now, I know if I'D made the path, I'd sit back and laugh while people fell and got hopelessly lost. Thats not what my creator does. He helps and leads and picks me up...How wonderful...
I'll leave on that thought...
Where to start...Its like...so-I'm not even sure what to say. I've been half way across the world, gotten in trouble, been utterly confused, made bad choices, gotten stuck in the middle of things, made new friends, lost friends...And the list goes on. *Sigh* It's been really really hectic. I have no time to breath or think or share life with friends or anything. This week has been fun getting together with friends non-stop for like 5 days or something. So that was fun. Camp starts in a few weeks. I think I'll be working with Alex so that's exciting...
Through this all...Have I been telling God about my life? Have I been daily sharing my life with HIM, not just family and friends? Have I been asking things of HIM and taking my issues to HIM and thanking HIM for things? Truthfully, not so much. My devotions were becoming more just...just by routine...like its just what I do. But now, since India, they've gone back to really being time with God to talk and listen to him. And THAT makes me excited! Um, I guess I wanted, and still do want, things my way and in my control. Life at this age isnt easy. You all know that. It's mostly just...well, it can be confusing. But, slowly, it's being figured out. I saw it as challenging and annoying and...hard. But now, I'm beginning to see it as fun and an adventure. It's something I'll only live once. So lets make the best of it. Sometimes it can get hard if you dont have friends doing it with you. So I have joined them in to help me and walk with me....its quite an adventure...A great one. BUT-How can I follow the path, that I see as one in darkness, I dont see where the next turn is? Well, if I know the maker, the creator of it, I can ask him to shine a light on it. I can ask him to hold my hand when I walk over the unexpected bridge. I can even ask him to help me get back on the path when I get off, or fall off the bridge! Now, I know if I'D made the path, I'd sit back and laugh while people fell and got hopelessly lost. Thats not what my creator does. He helps and leads and picks me up...How wonderful...
I'll leave on that thought...
India and Pictures
maggiegrantpictures.shutterfly.com
There you can see pictures from India...
Speaking of India...it was AMAZING. But, I'm not even going to TRY to begin to share everything about India....its just too much. Ask me about it personally and I'd love to though. Ok, leave it.....
There you can see pictures from India...
Speaking of India...it was AMAZING. But, I'm not even going to TRY to begin to share everything about India....its just too much. Ask me about it personally and I'd love to though. Ok, leave it.....
Tuesday, June 5, 2007
Feelings.
Overwhelmed, Confused, Stressed, yet peaceful. Tense, Weighed down, worried, anxious, frazzled, jittery, edgy, jumpy, panicky, uneasy, concerned, apprehensive, fearful, restless, frightened, fretful, restless, agitated, bothered, troubled, upset, scared, mad, sad, disturbed, depressed, alarmed, afraid, terrified, timid, hesitant, uncomfortable, ill at ease, perturbed, tense, uptight, overwrought, strained, pulled, emotional, tired, drained, agitated annoyed, exasperated, put out, frustrated and...everything else...
Leave Comments.
~Maggie
Leave Comments.
~Maggie
Sunday, June 3, 2007
Thursday, May 31, 2007
Decisions
idk if that title is spelled correctly btw...sry, just wanted to say that before starting.
Anyway, I HATE making decisions. Whether it's which store we go to or whats for dinner or what to wear or who does what, I don't like it. Leadership=not my thing. So like...I think that when it comes to times like these, i don't know what to do. I get anxious b/c its scary. What IF i make the wrong choice. What IF something...What IF...
Do I say something? Should I let God show this to someone if he wants people to know? Did I stumble upon this thing because I am supposed tell someone? WHATS THE DEAL HERE?! I'm confused and scared and sad. Disappointed by what I know.
Do you ever find something out then say "you know, life would be better if I didn't know this." Right now anyway. Being the only one who knows a secret can be a tricky thing. Or like if someone tells u they are harming themselves or something, u have to know what to do. So...anyway..I have found out this thing but dont know what to do. I'm scared. Of course I'm praying about it...and have been since...Saturday when I found this 'thing' out...please pray I'd know what to do. And if/when I figure out what to do I WILL DO it! B/c things like this aren't always easy to tell people about. Thanks,
-Mag~
Anyway, I HATE making decisions. Whether it's which store we go to or whats for dinner or what to wear or who does what, I don't like it. Leadership=not my thing. So like...I think that when it comes to times like these, i don't know what to do. I get anxious b/c its scary. What IF i make the wrong choice. What IF something...What IF...
Do I say something? Should I let God show this to someone if he wants people to know? Did I stumble upon this thing because I am supposed tell someone? WHATS THE DEAL HERE?! I'm confused and scared and sad. Disappointed by what I know.
Do you ever find something out then say "you know, life would be better if I didn't know this." Right now anyway. Being the only one who knows a secret can be a tricky thing. Or like if someone tells u they are harming themselves or something, u have to know what to do. So...anyway..I have found out this thing but dont know what to do. I'm scared. Of course I'm praying about it...and have been since...Saturday when I found this 'thing' out...please pray I'd know what to do. And if/when I figure out what to do I WILL DO it! B/c things like this aren't always easy to tell people about. Thanks,
-Mag~
Saturday, May 26, 2007
Tuesday, May 22, 2007
Confusion..
Hmm..where to start?
Well, I think people start going their separate ways sometimes. But does it have to be that way? I don't think so. I mean, I know people that have had friends since they were like babies. A few people from church have been friends since college. So why do some people stick and others don't? I mean, I see that like...Idk. Thats the thing....its all confusing. Like I have a friend that I think she and I are tight when we are with each other. But when we aren't or are just chatting on the phone or something, its like something isnt just right, an attitude is there from both of us and its not like it used to be. It's almost a backstabbing situation going on. I guess I've been seeing my need for God more so since this has been going on and I have a really close friend and a few others still. But still, I'm not gonna just let this relationship go down the drain...if I can help it anyway. I just wish we were as close as before. But...They don't seem to want that so I guess I have to accept that.
Parents...its that love/hate relationship we all have...I'll talk about that later...no time for that now...leave it...
..Mags..
Well, I think people start going their separate ways sometimes. But does it have to be that way? I don't think so. I mean, I know people that have had friends since they were like babies. A few people from church have been friends since college. So why do some people stick and others don't? I mean, I see that like...Idk. Thats the thing....its all confusing. Like I have a friend that I think she and I are tight when we are with each other. But when we aren't or are just chatting on the phone or something, its like something isnt just right, an attitude is there from both of us and its not like it used to be. It's almost a backstabbing situation going on. I guess I've been seeing my need for God more so since this has been going on and I have a really close friend and a few others still. But still, I'm not gonna just let this relationship go down the drain...if I can help it anyway. I just wish we were as close as before. But...They don't seem to want that so I guess I have to accept that.
Parents...its that love/hate relationship we all have...I'll talk about that later...no time for that now...leave it...
..Mags..
Thursday, May 17, 2007
Something I found...
Sometimes you just can't tell someone how you feel. Not just cause you don't trust them, & not cause you think they will call you a freak. but cause you can never really find the right words to make them understand. &it makes you frustrated. People take things 100 different ways, & that's why it's so hard. But if what you're trying to say, is meant to be said.. it will find a way to be understood - I think it's awesome that someone could write that!
Wednesday, May 16, 2007
Summer
Summer is here!!!! DONE SCHOOL!!!!
Wow. This school year went by so fast. Seems like just yesterday it started. But at the same time, I'm so ready to be done school. I still feel like I'm excited about going into highschool and I'm already done a year. Gosh, that was fast. UM, good things and bad things. I was able to keep my grades up and math went esp well. That was actually my BEST subject this year and usually I get a B or B- and this year the lowest grade I got on anything was a 93. So that was God's grace to help me work hard and persist and just get it done! I also finished that subject first. Bad things...i lost patience with people in my classes a few times and numerous other things. But anyway, I'm glad it's over. I'm already excited about next year. I'm especially excited about my Lit/Speech/Writing class with Mrs Tracy!! I cant wait for that! I was looking forward to doing aerobics, but not enough people were interested =[. Oh well. I am also looking forward to another year of math, hoping that goes well. I'll be doing Biology, which I started this year, but switched 2 weeks into it so that I could do Chemistry instead. So again, I'll be doing biology. yuck. But I am really excited because now all my friends will finally be in highschool and I'll be doing a bunch of classes with them! Well, I'll be doing Lit, Bio, Speech, History (not all of them are doing History), and Writing. I feel like they are doing something else with me, but I don't remember.
This summer should be fun though! I will be going to India June 17th-July 1st. I will be JCing at Beachmont for 2 weeks this summer. I would've liked to do 4 weeks, but because of India, that wont happen. Julie and I wanna do this week long thing that is too hard to explain on here...And I am trying to get into this class on Thursday's for an hour and a half. It's a lyrical/excersize class. I want to take that. It shouldn't be too hard on my knees. What else...Well, throughout the summer I'll be @ Beachmont on Tuesdays when I can. We're taking a day trip to Sandy Cove for the day because we usually go for a week for this conference every year. BUT, the day it starts is the day I get back from India. With jetlag and all...we just aren't going to go. But I have friendS i only see then, so I begged to go up for one day. So we will on Wednesday, even if I am alseep half the time =]. Anyway, along with that, I babysit my cousin some days in the summer. She is only 5 months. Well, six now. But so like this Sunday to Tuesday I'll be at her house babysitting and spending the night. Her parents both work, so I babysit from like 6-5 =]. So that is right now helping me get to India and after India will just be some extra money which will be good. I also will be weekly cleaning for my grandmother on Mondays. Besides that I have a daily schedule for biking and running, until my knees and hip make me stop in pain, I'll be doing that as well. So all in all, my summer is pretty busy.
What's your summer like?!
Ok, I gotta go now! Talk to you all later!
-Mags
Wow. This school year went by so fast. Seems like just yesterday it started. But at the same time, I'm so ready to be done school. I still feel like I'm excited about going into highschool and I'm already done a year. Gosh, that was fast. UM, good things and bad things. I was able to keep my grades up and math went esp well. That was actually my BEST subject this year and usually I get a B or B- and this year the lowest grade I got on anything was a 93. So that was God's grace to help me work hard and persist and just get it done! I also finished that subject first. Bad things...i lost patience with people in my classes a few times and numerous other things. But anyway, I'm glad it's over. I'm already excited about next year. I'm especially excited about my Lit/Speech/Writing class with Mrs Tracy!! I cant wait for that! I was looking forward to doing aerobics, but not enough people were interested =[. Oh well. I am also looking forward to another year of math, hoping that goes well. I'll be doing Biology, which I started this year, but switched 2 weeks into it so that I could do Chemistry instead. So again, I'll be doing biology. yuck. But I am really excited because now all my friends will finally be in highschool and I'll be doing a bunch of classes with them! Well, I'll be doing Lit, Bio, Speech, History (not all of them are doing History), and Writing. I feel like they are doing something else with me, but I don't remember.
This summer should be fun though! I will be going to India June 17th-July 1st. I will be JCing at Beachmont for 2 weeks this summer. I would've liked to do 4 weeks, but because of India, that wont happen. Julie and I wanna do this week long thing that is too hard to explain on here...And I am trying to get into this class on Thursday's for an hour and a half. It's a lyrical/excersize class. I want to take that. It shouldn't be too hard on my knees. What else...Well, throughout the summer I'll be @ Beachmont on Tuesdays when I can. We're taking a day trip to Sandy Cove for the day because we usually go for a week for this conference every year. BUT, the day it starts is the day I get back from India. With jetlag and all...we just aren't going to go. But I have friendS i only see then, so I begged to go up for one day. So we will on Wednesday, even if I am alseep half the time =]. Anyway, along with that, I babysit my cousin some days in the summer. She is only 5 months. Well, six now. But so like this Sunday to Tuesday I'll be at her house babysitting and spending the night. Her parents both work, so I babysit from like 6-5 =]. So that is right now helping me get to India and after India will just be some extra money which will be good. I also will be weekly cleaning for my grandmother on Mondays. Besides that I have a daily schedule for biking and running, until my knees and hip make me stop in pain, I'll be doing that as well. So all in all, my summer is pretty busy.
What's your summer like?!
Ok, I gotta go now! Talk to you all later!
-Mags
Wednesday, May 9, 2007
Bible verses...
This will involve comments!
Ok, so i want to know a couple things...
1) What is your favorite verse/passage or chapter in the whole Bible?
2) Why?
3) How long has it been your favorite verse?
4) How has it touched you personally or what does it mean to you?
Leave it!
Mags...
Ok, so i want to know a couple things...
1) What is your favorite verse/passage or chapter in the whole Bible?
2) Why?
3) How long has it been your favorite verse?
4) How has it touched you personally or what does it mean to you?
Leave it!
Mags...
Friday, May 4, 2007
PSALM 77! =]
PSALM 77:1-13:PLEASE READ!!!
1 I cried out to God for help;
I cried out to God to hear me.
2 When I was in distress, I sought the Lord;
at night I stretched out untiring hands
and my soul refused to be comforted.
3 I remembered you, O God, and I groaned;
I mused, and my spirit grew faint.
Selah
4 You kept my eyes from closing;
I was too troubled to speak.
5 I thought about the former days,
the years of long ago;
6 I remembered my songs in the night.
My heart mused and my spirit inquired:
7 "Will the Lord reject forever?
Will he never show his favor again?
8 Has his unfailing love vanished forever?
Has his promise failed for all time?
9 Has God forgotten to be merciful?
Has he in anger withheld his compassion?"
Selah
10 Then I thought, "To this I will appeal:
the years of the right hand of the Most High."
11 I will remember the deeds of the LORD;
yes, I will remember your miracles of long ago.
12 I will meditate on all your works
and consider all your mighty deeds.
13 Your ways, O God, are holy.
What god is so great as our God?
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
So that is like the most amazing thing like ever...haha. No, but seriously, if you are going through a trial or rough time, you should seriously like memorize those verses. They are the most important things ever! I love them so much.
"i cried out to God for help"- This helps me remember HE is my source of hope and comfort, HE is who I cry out to.
"when I was in distress, I sought the Lord"- sorta the same thing. But he says when in DISTRESS. I try to remember to go to God ESP when in distress!
I like this...
"you kept my eyes from closing; I was too troubled to speak"-He realizes GOD gave him that trial, something I don't always see.
Then for a few verses he talks about I guess doubting God, questioning. But then he remembers the deeds of the Lord, how it is good. He considers the mighty deeds of God and meditates on his works!
He goes on to PRAISE God, during his trial.
Asaph=MAN OF FAITH!
He totally was trusting God, [a][m][a][z][i][n][g]
So anyway, any thoughts? Leave them please! Thanks Sarah for the idea of this Psalm, greatly appreciated!
≈Mags!
1 I cried out to God for help;
I cried out to God to hear me.
2 When I was in distress, I sought the Lord;
at night I stretched out untiring hands
and my soul refused to be comforted.
3 I remembered you, O God, and I groaned;
I mused, and my spirit grew faint.
Selah
4 You kept my eyes from closing;
I was too troubled to speak.
5 I thought about the former days,
the years of long ago;
6 I remembered my songs in the night.
My heart mused and my spirit inquired:
7 "Will the Lord reject forever?
Will he never show his favor again?
8 Has his unfailing love vanished forever?
Has his promise failed for all time?
9 Has God forgotten to be merciful?
Has he in anger withheld his compassion?"
Selah
10 Then I thought, "To this I will appeal:
the years of the right hand of the Most High."
11 I will remember the deeds of the LORD;
yes, I will remember your miracles of long ago.
12 I will meditate on all your works
and consider all your mighty deeds.
13 Your ways, O God, are holy.
What god is so great as our God?
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
So that is like the most amazing thing like ever...haha. No, but seriously, if you are going through a trial or rough time, you should seriously like memorize those verses. They are the most important things ever! I love them so much.
"i cried out to God for help"- This helps me remember HE is my source of hope and comfort, HE is who I cry out to.
"when I was in distress, I sought the Lord"- sorta the same thing. But he says when in DISTRESS. I try to remember to go to God ESP when in distress!
I like this...
"you kept my eyes from closing; I was too troubled to speak"-He realizes GOD gave him that trial, something I don't always see.
Then for a few verses he talks about I guess doubting God, questioning. But then he remembers the deeds of the Lord, how it is good. He considers the mighty deeds of God and meditates on his works!
He goes on to PRAISE God, during his trial.
Asaph=MAN OF FAITH!
He totally was trusting God, [a][m][a][z][i][n][g]
So anyway, any thoughts? Leave them please! Thanks Sarah for the idea of this Psalm, greatly appreciated!
≈Mags!
Monday, April 30, 2007
Fed Up and things learned
hmm. i am FED up with drama. Like, ok, just answer this ONE question with a good answer and I'll be content. WHAT - IS - THE - POINT!? I just dont get it stil. Like, WHY is what I'd like to know! huh, its a lot. But I just learned two cool cool things. You wanna knwo what they are? Ok..(from church-it was about trials)
1)I am not to IGNORE the pain and suffering of trials. I am to look at the good things, but not IGNORE or block out the bad things. So now I can look @ the bad things not as 'bad' but as GOOD! Like I am now starting to see the pain AS beauty! Awesomeness God!
2) I am to look @ the trial through eyes of faith. Pst Don kept saying "eyes of faith" "eyes of faith"... And that stuck. i was looking at things through my own eyes, no wonder I was having to FORCE myself to see good things ect.
3) Also to look @ the big picture, not just the small things thru my narrow eyes.
Anyway, its def cool. If you wanna pray for me, please pray that I'd be able to see things through eyes of faith. Thanks SO much! ily all!
Mags!
1)I am not to IGNORE the pain and suffering of trials. I am to look at the good things, but not IGNORE or block out the bad things. So now I can look @ the bad things not as 'bad' but as GOOD! Like I am now starting to see the pain AS beauty! Awesomeness God!
2) I am to look @ the trial through eyes of faith. Pst Don kept saying "eyes of faith" "eyes of faith"... And that stuck. i was looking at things through my own eyes, no wonder I was having to FORCE myself to see good things ect.
3) Also to look @ the big picture, not just the small things thru my narrow eyes.
Anyway, its def cool. If you wanna pray for me, please pray that I'd be able to see things through eyes of faith. Thanks SO much! ily all!
Mags!
Tuesday, April 24, 2007
I really just asked for conformation.
I think some things don't makes sense. Just needing conformation. That's all. I guess sometimes you can't get that...*takes deep breath*. But I'm....trusting in God right? Uh...yea. Yea, I'm trusting in God and I kno it'll all be ok...it's all going according to His will...so then everything must be going great...right? *Sigh* I dont know. Goodnight. Pray for me
≈Mags≈
≈Mags≈
Tuesday, April 17, 2007
Ugh
Can I just say highschool drama really sucks. I dont get the point. Its all kinda W/E to me and pretty much immature...oh well...
≈Mags
≈Mags
Wednesday, April 11, 2007
Running away!!!
I wish I could hide. Just hide. I need to get away. Just for a day or so. If I had a car I'd just drive. just for the weekend or so. I mean, I need to go somewhere where NO one knows me. No one knows what a wreck I am. I think that would be really good. Not so that I can run from my problems, but just so that I can have a break. Ok, I gtg...ttyl
≈Mags
≈Mags
Tuesday, April 10, 2007
something funny?
hehe...I just gotta laugh. Thats all. I need something funny!! Please, comment something to make me laugh. i need that about now...
Monday, April 9, 2007
Uh-oh
I kno, its been forever. Well, here's the deal....Everything has been CRAZY. Like, idk. i feel like my world is cuming from under me. Like, idk. I just feel like everything is nuts. Like my friends are giong down a scary path. What's scarier is that I have been where they are... I feel like theres this road...its 10 points long. They are at 5, I'm @ 7. Or when I was @ 3, they were @ 1. Idk if that makes sense..but it does to me..hehe. But I feel so bad. I did tell one of them tho, so that's good..I wish I could do more...
Sunday, April 1, 2007
hmm...a lot
Sry my dear readers. I know I haven't been on for a long time...so here...here's what's up with me...
UGH! idk what it is...its like everything. everything. it makes me upset. I have
to tell someone. but who? like everyone is messed up and freaky and will hurt
me. Like...idk. i dont even know what it is really. its everything that's hurt
me. everything thats been said. its just-life i guess? but i know that it doesnt
have to be this way. so should i let God make it better? i dont really know what
to do or how to do it. i'll just let it play itself out...i guess
there you are.
Mags
UGH! idk what it is...its like everything. everything. it makes me upset. I have
to tell someone. but who? like everyone is messed up and freaky and will hurt
me. Like...idk. i dont even know what it is really. its everything that's hurt
me. everything thats been said. its just-life i guess? but i know that it doesnt
have to be this way. so should i let God make it better? i dont really know what
to do or how to do it. i'll just let it play itself out...i guess
there you are.
Mags
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