Feelings.

Overwhelmed, Confused, Stressed, yet peaceful. Tense, Weighed down, worried, anxious, frazzled, jittery, edgy, jumpy, panicky, uneasy, concerned, apprehensive, fearful, restless, frightened, fretful, restless, agitated, bothered, troubled, upset, scared, mad, sad, disturbed, depressed, alarmed, afraid, terrified, timid, hesitant, uncomfortable, ill at ease, perturbed, tense, uptight, overwrought, strained, pulled, emotional, tired, drained, agitated annoyed, exasperated, put out, frustrated and...everything else...
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~Maggie

*rolls eyes*

Right now all I can say is...U-G-H!!!

PrAy FoR mE?

≈Mags...

Something I found...

Sometimes you just can't tell someone how you feel. Not just cause you don't trust them, & not cause you think they will call you a freak. but cause you can never really find the right words to make them understand. &it makes you frustrated. People take things 100 different ways, & that's why it's so hard. But if what you're trying to say, is meant to be said.. it will find a way to be understood - I think it's awesome that someone could write that!

Summer

Summer is here!!!! DONE SCHOOL!!!!
Wow. This school year went by so fast. Seems like just yesterday it started. But at the same time, I'm so ready to be done school. I still feel like I'm excited about going into highschool and I'm already done a year. Gosh, that was fast. UM, good things and bad things. I was able to keep my grades up and math went esp well. That was actually my BEST subject this year and usually I get a B or B- and this year the lowest grade I got on anything was a 93. So that was God's grace to help me work hard and persist and just get it done! I also finished that subject first. Bad things...i lost patience with people in my classes a few times and numerous other things. But anyway, I'm glad it's over. I'm already excited about next year. I'm especially excited about my Lit/Speech/Writing class with Mrs Tracy!! I cant wait for that! I was looking forward to doing aerobics, but not enough people were interested =[. Oh well. I am also looking forward to another year of math, hoping that goes well. I'll be doing Biology, which I started this year, but switched 2 weeks into it so that I could do Chemistry instead. So again, I'll be doing biology. yuck. But I am really excited because now all my friends will finally be in highschool and I'll be doing a bunch of classes with them! Well, I'll be doing Lit, Bio, Speech, History (not all of them are doing History), and Writing. I feel like they are doing something else with me, but I don't remember.
This summer should be fun though! I will be going to India June 17th-July 1st. I will be JCing at Beachmont for 2 weeks this summer. I would've liked to do 4 weeks, but because of India, that wont happen. Julie and I wanna do this week long thing that is too hard to explain on here...And I am trying to get into this class on Thursday's for an hour and a half. It's a lyrical/excersize class. I want to take that. It shouldn't be too hard on my knees. What else...Well, throughout the summer I'll be @ Beachmont on Tuesdays when I can. We're taking a day trip to Sandy Cove for the day because we usually go for a week for this conference every year. BUT, the day it starts is the day I get back from India. With jetlag and all...we just aren't going to go. But I have friendS i only see then, so I begged to go up for one day. So we will on Wednesday, even if I am alseep half the time =]. Anyway, along with that, I babysit my cousin some days in the summer. She is only 5 months. Well, six now. But so like this Sunday to Tuesday I'll be at her house babysitting and spending the night. Her parents both work, so I babysit from like 6-5 =]. So that is right now helping me get to India and after India will just be some extra money which will be good. I also will be weekly cleaning for my grandmother on Mondays. Besides that I have a daily schedule for biking and running, until my knees and hip make me stop in pain, I'll be doing that as well. So all in all, my summer is pretty busy.
What's your summer like?!

Ok, I gotta go now! Talk to you all later!
-Mags

I really just asked for conformation.

I think some things don't makes sense. Just needing conformation. That's all. I guess sometimes you can't get that...*takes deep breath*. But I'm....trusting in God right? Uh...yea. Yea, I'm trusting in God and I kno it'll all be ok...it's all going according to His will...so then everything must be going great...right? *Sigh* I dont know. Goodnight. Pray for me


≈Mags≈

Running away!!!

I wish I could hide. Just hide. I need to get away. Just for a day or so. If I had a car I'd just drive. just for the weekend or so. I mean, I need to go somewhere where NO one knows me. No one knows what a wreck I am. I think that would be really good. Not so that I can run from my problems, but just so that I can have a break. Ok, I gtg...ttyl
≈Mags

something funny?

hehe...I just gotta laugh. Thats all. I need something funny!! Please, comment something to make me laugh. i need that about now...

hmm...a lot

Sry my dear readers. I know I haven't been on for a long time...so here...here's what's up with me...
UGH! idk what it is...its like everything. everything. it makes me upset. I have
to tell someone. but who? like everyone is messed up and freaky and will hurt
me. Like...idk. i dont even know what it is really. its everything that's hurt
me. everything thats been said. its just-life i guess? but i know that it doesnt
have to be this way. so should i let God make it better? i dont really know what
to do or how to do it. i'll just let it play itself out...i guess
there you are.
Mags

An amazing weekend...

Hey all,
I just wanted to say...this is going to be a historical weekend. i am NOT going to the dubells...I seriously can not remember the last time I didnt go to their house! Anyway, I also wanted to share that I got NINE hours of sleep! Idk the last time that happened either! So anyway, have a great weekend!
~Mags

messed up...

I messed up, made a mistake, i was wrong. I'm hoping to be able to fix it, but idk. Its something that will never be forgotten. God taught me through this. He did. He also showed me something. God has been good through this whole thing. All I can say is I'm sorry and pray to be forgiven....never will forget...


Dear God,
Thank you for your grace. I thank Jesus for allowing me to have this grace. I'm sorry. Please soften ______'_ heart and possibly forgive me. Thank you...
In Jesus name,

until next time,
≈Mags≈

Stuff...

Readers,

hmm...YA=Amazing. i learned so much! God was def there with me. I'm not going into detail, it's personal. If you'd like to know though, just ask me and i will tell you!

THe past few days have been very stressful and I've been sleeping nonstop. It's not a good thing.

So how do you all feel about black nails? I mean, I have my nails painted black, and you know what, I LIKE IT! I was about to take it off before YA, but only b/c I thought "ppl @ church wont like this." But that's just fear of man. And you know what, about 4 ppl DONT like it and are judging me because of it. But that just shows a lot about their character! I like it, so I'm keeping it on. I'm going to wear it to church on Sunday. I'm not sure what people will say. I hope they just know that I like it, and they have to deal if they dont like it!!!! I think its cute! And its not like I'm going emo, goth or anything. AND, my motives aren't wrong for doing this. ITS A COLOR!!! I did it b/c I LIKE IT!!! Anyway, this is sorta dumb, but w/e. I feel like other ppl just wouldn't be allowed (my parents could care less...) to wear it, so are skeptical. Oh well. anyway, gtg.

≈Mags≈

YA IS TOMORRROW!!!

TOMORROW IS YA!!!! I CAN'T WAIT!!!!! I'M SO EXCITED. I'LL TELL YOU ALL ABOUT IT WHEN I GET BACK!!!!!!

Dear Lord,
Please please please use this weekend to touch ppls lives. Esp mine....and Lord, take the requests from my YA prayer paper and please please answer them thiss weekend.Lord, allow others to open their hearts to you and let you control them. I pray you will make this weekend...unforgettable. I also pray for all the many people who are helping, pastor matt, the singles...everyone involoved. I pray you would bless them, give them comfort, dont let them get worried or stressed. Please let everything work out smoothly!!!
In Jesus' name,
-Amen


≈Mags≈

extreme tired...ness...

Ugh,
I've been so tired lately. Idk. It's kinda weird. like I cant stay up more then 4 hours without falling asleep. i fall asleep anytime I sit pretty much :-\. Some think its mono (I did drink after jule 2 times when she had mono...) and my mother thinks its just being like over exahsted. I'm not sure which. I feel sooooo tired though. Like sleeping constantly and just dont have any energy. It's a lil weird...idk...but it's annoying and puts me in a bad mood since I'm so tired all the time and people are always waking me up which never makes you happy. But anyway, it's pretty weird!!!

Dear Lord,
Please help me have more energy and help me not to be so tired all the time. Please help me take care of my body so I can have as much energy as possible! Thank you for blessing me with a healthy body.
In Jesus' name,
-Amen

Till next time (FOUR DAYS...OMG I CANT WAIT)
≈Mags≈

ballet...

So, I've decided to go on with dancing. For those of you who don't know, I have been having AWFUL knee problems because of dancing. They are in a lot of pain during and for 2-4 days after dancing. It's getting pretty bad.
Heres the deal. On Oct 6, 2005, I went to a knee doctor. He took X-rays of my knees and hips (I had hip displasia when I was a baby, but they fixed it. We thought that still may have something to do with it). At that point it wasn't too bad and it was mostly my right knee. I'd never felt pain in my hips. He gave me exercises, told me when I stopped growing I'd be alright and to just do the exercises and continue dancing. He said I'd be better in 3 months if I did the exercises. I did them faithfully. That didn't work. The pain got worse to where it hurt to do anything after dancing.
I went to another doctor on October something, 2006. She said that I have to continue the exercises to strengthen my quad, which would make me knees better. She gave me a brace (for my right knee, which WAS the worse one) and also told me to ice my knees after dance classes. My hip (right) had also started hurting that year. She didn't say anything about it. She, also, said when I' stop growing my knees would be better. Well, considering I've been 4 11 1/2 for about a year or so, I think I'm done growing (and my doctor says I wont grow much more. Maybe a 1/2 inch). So I went home, feeling a little better.
Well now, 4 months later, I can't walk up steps after classes. It's getting pretty bad but it'll be ok. No one wants me to drop out and I'm not really....allowed my some people. So I said I will keep going until I can't. I decided once and for all. No more changing my mind. The only thing I am a little worried about is permanently hurting myself. So I'm doing my best to take care of myself, stay pain free (yay Advil!), dance, walk up steps, keep everyone happy, not drop out of ballet, not do what I can't during classes and do what I was told to keep my knees healthy. So I'll keep you posted on my knee situation, but I wanted to post about it so you all knew what was up.

Dear Lord,
Thank you for taking care of me. Thank you for my healthy body. I pray you'd help me take care of it!
In Jesus' name,
-Amen!

That's it...until next time...(10 days)
≈Mags≈

life

life=ugh! I cant wait for YA though!

Lord,
life's rough. That's all I can say....
In Jesus' name,
-Amen

(17 days)
≈Mags≈