oh. my. gosh.

AAHHHHHHHHHH. You've GOT to be kidding me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


-Mag...

Confusion..

Hmm..where to start?
Well, I think people start going their separate ways sometimes. But does it have to be that way? I don't think so. I mean, I know people that have had friends since they were like babies. A few people from church have been friends since college. So why do some people stick and others don't? I mean, I see that like...Idk. Thats the thing....its all confusing. Like I have a friend that I think she and I are tight when we are with each other. But when we aren't or are just chatting on the phone or something, its like something isnt just right, an attitude is there from both of us and its not like it used to be. It's almost a backstabbing situation going on. I guess I've been seeing my need for God more so since this has been going on and I have a really close friend and a few others still. But still, I'm not gonna just let this relationship go down the drain...if I can help it anyway. I just wish we were as close as before. But...They don't seem to want that so I guess I have to accept that.
Parents...its that love/hate relationship we all have...I'll talk about that later...no time for that now...leave it...
..Mags..

Fed Up and things learned

hmm. i am FED up with drama. Like, ok, just answer this ONE question with a good answer and I'll be content. WHAT - IS - THE - POINT!? I just dont get it stil. Like, WHY is what I'd like to know! huh, its a lot. But I just learned two cool cool things. You wanna knwo what they are? Ok..(from church-it was about trials)
1)I am not to IGNORE the pain and suffering of trials. I am to look at the good things, but not IGNORE or block out the bad things. So now I can look @ the bad things not as 'bad' but as GOOD! Like I am now starting to see the pain AS beauty! Awesomeness God!
2) I am to look @ the trial through eyes of faith. Pst Don kept saying "eyes of faith" "eyes of faith"... And that stuck. i was looking at things through my own eyes, no wonder I was having to FORCE myself to see good things ect.
3) Also to look @ the big picture, not just the small things thru my narrow eyes.
Anyway, its def cool. If you wanna pray for me, please pray that I'd be able to see things through eyes of faith. Thanks SO much! ily all!

Mags!

Ugh

Can I just say highschool drama really sucks. I dont get the point. Its all kinda W/E to me and pretty much immature...oh well...
≈Mags

Uh-oh

I kno, its been forever. Well, here's the deal....Everything has been CRAZY. Like, idk. i feel like my world is cuming from under me. Like, idk. I just feel like everything is nuts. Like my friends are giong down a scary path. What's scarier is that I have been where they are... I feel like theres this road...its 10 points long. They are at 5, I'm @ 7. Or when I was @ 3, they were @ 1. Idk if that makes sense..but it does to me..hehe. But I feel so bad. I did tell one of them tho, so that's good..I wish I could do more...

Alyssa

Haha...this girl just sent me an e-mail "I love you more then a fat kid loves cake. Just thought you'd wanna know that." I just wanted to say that babe, that means more then life to me!!!!! I wanted you to know that like, seriously, you are def one of my heros. I'm sorry I dont tell you enough how much you mean to me. Cuz I think you need to know! I-LOVE-YOU!

xoxo
Mags!

My friend,

I have tons of school to do and everything. I would like to say this. My friend (you know who you are), you mean so much to me. I love you so much. You have helped me so much in my life. You also are going through like so much. But I'll come to you and tell you what's going on and you will be there. You drop what you are doing and help me. You don't look down on me because of my sin, you dont condemn me, you just talk to me. Yes, you correct me, that is great! I love that! You speak the truth to me. You are a G-R-E-A-T friend. You don't always say "here is your problem: here is why you are wrong: here is how you better fix it!:" I love that. Sometimes, you will siimply say "I can't help you, but I can walk through this WITH you." That means more then anything else could! Ok, anyawy, I just wanted to say that to ya babe!

Until next time,
≈Mags≈

Friends/love for them

Friends...
You gotta love them. I may know some better or be closer with , but love them all the same. When friends get into trouble, what do you do? Do you leave them hanging? Do you pretend to care when you really are running, crying and scared? No way. You gotta be there for them. You have to be a shoulder for them to cry on. You have to meet them where they are. You have to understand, even if you really don't. BUT, you have to love them more then you love what they want. What's this mean? Well, when friends get in trouble, you gotta help them out, even if it means going against their will. Do you care? If you do, then you wouldn't let them stay in trouble. Covering for them does nothing but hurt them and bring you tons of guilt. You have to love them more then you love what they want! Don't learn that the hard way...PLEASE

God, thank you so much for my friends. I'm so blessed by them. The ones younger then me and the ones older then me. I love them all. I could've asked for nothing better. Thank you soo much. You are nothing less then amazing. You are working in a certain friend imparticular Lord. I pray you'd soften their heart. I pray that you would love on this friend and let them know you are here. I pray that you would continue giving me strength to love this friend more then what this friend wants. Thank you Jesus. YOU ARE AMAZING and I know if I listen to you and let you use me, it will all work out ok!
In Jesus' name,
-Amen

So, God's amazing. That's the end. Yea, I've had some tough stuff lately. But it's ok. God's working it for good, even when I dont see how its good at the moment, I know something good is coming out of it. And I can have that confidence!

Oh yea, happy Valentines day! (8 days left!)
≈Mags≈

someone in my life...

God is SOO good to me. He def answers prayers. Read on...

Ok, so I'd been praying that God would put someone in my life that I could like, idk exactly. I guess help out, with His love and words of course. I wanted Him to use ME in someone else's life, like others had done for me. Ok, so I was talking to someone, and I didn't really think anything of it. But now, after giving htem advice, seeing God work soooo much in them, see God growing them up in Him and maturing them far beyond their years.

God, thank you for putting them in my life. Thank you for using me. Thank you for letting THEM teach ME also. I pray you protect them and show them your love!
In Jesus' name,
-Amen

God's just amazing. He's using things I'VE learned from trials, to help this other younger girl. It's so cool. i'm not only helping her and teaching her (only because of God's help and strength of course), but it's helping me.I'm seeing how much God's taught me. How TRULY thankful I am for trials. I just found out not only was I praying for someone, THEY were praying for someone to HELP them. Gosh, the Lord NEVER ceases to amaze me! God is so great!
Anyway, I'll post later! (9 DAYS LEFT!)
≈Mags≈

(you know who you are 'person')